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Well, this is my first post… I’ve finally decided to put my fingers to work. I find that writing helps to relieve stress and if anything provides some reading enjoyment for others… so here goes…!
My husband, Rob, and I were recently married in June. Our wedding day was a something out of a story book – beautiful weather, amazing ceremony and reception and quite memorable too! It was everything I imagined and then some! We honeymooned in Punta Cana and spent another week in Virginia Beach – both were amazing!
We went to Vegas in September for Rob’s aunt’s wedding… it was held at a local state park in the area. It was really beautiful – and I was shocked at how many mountains were in the area! I had never been to Vegas before, Rob went a few years back for one of his friends’ bachelor party. We stayed at NY, NY… again, amazing! We had a great view from our room (although we barely spent any time there!)! I became addicted to black jack… and for a while I was up several hundred $$$, but it seemed to disappear just like that!
And it was in Vegas that we decided we each wanted to start trying for a baby. So one thing lead to another and I found out I was pregnant in October… I was shocked after the first HPT was positive. When I told Rob we both had tears of joy in our eyes! However, I ended up having a miscarriage and we have not had any luck since then. As it turns out, I have a luteal phase defect and in January my doctor put me on Clomid (50mg) in hopes that this would correct the problem. In fact, aside from Rob, my doctor and a couple friends, we never really shared the pregnancy/miscarriage news with anyone… until now.
I really thought getting pregnant would be easy… hahaha… silly me. And of course it seems as though everyone else around me is now pregnant… flauting their fertility without even knowing it. So there are lots of baby shower invites coming and it makes me sad to even think about going to them. I am happy for my friends, but I also have to admit… I’m jealous. I am so green with envy that it’s driving me crazy. What’s a girl to do?
I’m sorry for your loss. I too know the pain it can bring when you lose a pregnancy. I wish you all the best on this journey – the road is long and hard, but remember to stay focussed on the end goal.
Posted 1 year, 8 months agoI understand what you’re going through. May I suggest though, that if you do have a luteal phase defect, then you ought to go straight to a reproductive endocrinologist as to WHY you have a luteal phase defect. Your ob/gyn is doing the typical ob/gyn response to fertility problems which is to just throw clomid at you and see what happens. And this isn’t to jolt you into a next big step, but I speak from experience that the sooner you’re at the RE vs. your ob/gyn, you have more understanding and more imperical care. There are NO vacations at the RE’s office. They are there 7 a week, 365 days a year.
Anyway, a thought to think about while your ob/gyn is gone a ‘couple’ of weeks.
Good luck!
Posted 1 year, 4 months agoTina