Gloomy Days

Well it seems fitting that it’s a raining, gloomy day… AF just arrived.  Fantastic. 

I’ve decided to re-energize my blog… I need a stress reliever, and somehow sharing all my frustrations, pains and stories with a world of strangers seems to help!   So let’s catch up from where I last left of… oh, just about 5 months ago:

1. I’m still trying to get pregnant
2. I’ve been diagnosed with EBV (the virus that “could” cause mono) – of course there’s no cure for this (according to my doctor), so I’m supposed to just deal with being tired all the time.  The good news is that during the “testing phase” of this discovery, I was pricked for just about every virus and hormonal issues possible – and nothing else was “discovered”… so my thyroid and hormones are supposedly in check.  Of course, as the doctor was explaining this to me I was balling my eyes out in his office… which is definitely not like me.  He only tested my prolactin levels… I’m not sure that’s inclusive of all hormones though. 
3. I’ve gone through the pain of an HSG test – fortunately both tubes are open.  And for anyone seeking honest inputs on how this test feels:  it’s like your worst cramps… ever!  The good news is that it’s only for a few minutes.  I was scared out of my mind, but thank god for a funny doctor – he definitely made me feel at ease.  I think the fact that the room was so big, cold and there was this huge machine moving over me was a little intimidating.  Anyways, turns out everything was open – I’m was hoping that this would be like a good hard flush for my tubes… clearing out any possible blockages.  Unfortunately, as #1 pointed out… no such luck.
4. One of my good friends will be moving away   It’s actually a good opportunity for her family, but she was my rock to cry on and the person I could talk to about all my fertility issues (and again, my reason for bring my blog back).  And it’s not like I don’t enjoy talking to my husband about all of this… but sometimes it’s just nice to seek comfort from another female’s point of view.
5. I’ve given up all caffeine (yes, including chocolate… and if you only knew how much chocolate I could put away… you’d understand this pain!), hot showers and baths (so I’ve heard this can cause issues in early pregnancy), and the gym (this is partially because my friend leaving (see #4) was also my motivator to hit the gym.  I’ve done all of this on the whim that somehow I’ll magically become pregnant because of it! 
6. My obsession with organization has definitely increased… it’s something that keeps me busy (or at least my mind from wandering… Am I pregnant?  Could that be an ovulation twinge?  Was that implantation cramping I felt?  Should I take a test?)
7. Oh yeah, I switched to a new OB/GYN (she’s the one that recommended the HSG) and I love her!

Speaking of my new dr… I just called and left a message for her to call me back.  I figured since AF is here… maybe she has a new plan up her sleeve for what else I can do.  My other doctor had ordered my “Cycle Day 3 tests” on day 8… so I never really got a warm and fuzzy that the results were true.  I’m hoping my new doctor will be able to run some tests this week… I really don’t want to lose another cycle of opportunities! 

Ok, until my next post… fingers crossed!

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