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Trips Ahoy!
Well hubby just left for travel and I’m leaving tomorrow for travel as well. Too bad we’ll be in different places! I’m supposed to be on travel next week as well, but… ahem… it’s supposed to be my most fertile week (according to fertility friend), so I’m trying my best to get out of it! Besides I’ll be gone the entire following week on travel as well! That’ll just be too much to keep up with – I can see my inbox when I get back: “You have 4,592 new messages.” Ummm, no thanks!
I am looking forward to the last week in august though.. we’re going on vacation! YEAH!!! Not sure where yet, but who cares, it’s vacation! And, in September I’m going overseas for travel… yeahhhhh, and I’m making sure hubby comes with me! I mean when else are we going to get to travel abroad and only have to pay for an extra plane ticket and meals! It’s great!
Anyways, nothing else to report here… anyone else have anything to share?!?
Happy Birthday to Me!
Well it’s official, I’m another year closer to 30 (not that there’s anything wrong with that age, but it used to seem so far away… now it’s as if it’s been sneaking up on me!). I don’t like to make a big deal out of my birthday, but every now and then it’s nice to hear Happy Birthday! 
So, I’ve been throwing around “subtle” reminders to my friends and family… ok, so subtle really isn’t in my vocab… I called my hubby, brother and family yesterday and left them all funny messages reminding them “There’s only one shopping day left until your wife/sister/daughter’s birthday… better shop soon!” hahaha
I’m off work today (yes!), so I’ve managed to escape the embarassing “happy birthday” afternoon cake party. I never know how to act in that situation – there’s 45 people all standing around singing (actually there’s only 3 that sing and the rest just mouth the words!). Anyways, it’s like I’m in the movie office space or something. Ok, back to my day… I’ve already done 2 loads of laundry, the dishes that rob left in the sink for me, and I’ve cleaned the downstairs. Nice, eh?
I’m thinking if I get all the laundry done soon, I’ll treat myself to a good book from the library and a day at the beach! Anyone read any good books lately? And tonight we’re going to a wine and cheese tasting… looking forward to it!!!!
Toot… excuse me!
And so my symptoms progress… for the past few weeks, I’ve been having these horrible headaches that seem to come and go in spurts. I’ve never had a migraine diagnosed, but I would imagine my headaches are pretty close to what one would feel like. It’s like this blinding pain and I feel like my eyes are going crossed and my vision is blurred.
Anyways, so today I have a major bloating problem… and I’m so gassy. The gas pains are so bad that there’s times that I can hardly move because it feels like my abdomen is going to bust out of my skin! (yes, sorry if that’s TMI for you… but hey, we don’t know each other so that’s all right by me! ) So I decided that I would research some of my issues:
- headaches
- cold hands/feet (even in the dead of summer)
- bloating
- extreme fatigue
- hair loss
- low bbt (my highest temps are usually at or just below 98.4 – and that’s usually during my luteal phase)
- Major mood swings
- and the list goes on and on and on….
So I’m diagnosing myself with hypothyroidism… or Wilson’s Temperature Syndrome. Any one heard of the second? I’m wondering if it’s a real syndrome or gibberish. My regular doctor tested all my thyroid functions and he said everything was normal, but I still disagree – people just don’t feel like this… period. I also decided that since my doctor was on vacation and my next appt isn’t until the end of August… I was going to make my own appointment with an endocrinologist. I called the closest one and unfortunately “the doctor is only accepting patients in this county.” Excuse me? But can a doctor really reject seeing you because you live in another county? The office is 15 miles away from my house… what’s up with that? I had to make the call from work today… I figured I would have to answer detailed questions and since my “cube” is not very private, I went to my car. Since thatnumber was the only one I took with me, I didn’t want to go back to my cube to find another doctor to call. What a waste! It’s times like these that I wish dr offices would get cyber smart and have online appointments… wouldn’t that be great!?!?!?
Gloomy Day – Update
So I left a message earlier today for my Dr. to call me and discuss the “next steps.” After 7 hours of waiting for a call back, I decided to check back in and see if my Dr. got my message – the recepetionist and I had a conversation that went like this:
Receptionist: Oh, yes, about that… The Dr. will be out of the country for the next couple weeks, so you’ll have to come in and see her when she gets back.
Me: Is anyone was covering for her patients while she is out?
Receptionist: Yes, but only for emergencies.
Me (in my head): But this is an emergency. I haven’t been able to get pregnant… I have fertility issues and today is day 1 of my cycle. I don’t want to waste another cycle just because this Dr. decided to pack up and ship off to another country without telling me (yes, the world revolves around me).
Me (actually). Ok.
Receptionist: How’s August 21st for you?
Me: Is that the first appt available?
Receptionist: Yes.
Ummmm… correct me if I’m wrong or missed a time warp, but isn’t today July 14th? How is August 21st a “couple weeks.” Not to mention that if my mathis correct (and AF comes as predicted in August), that will be CD 10 of my next cycle… so really I’m looking forward to another 2 cycles of anxiety, worries and holding my breath.
I guess when it rains, it pours!
On that note, I’ve decided to relax with an at-home facial tonight (and maybe if I’m luck, I’ll get a back rub too!) Since deciding to start a family, I’ve had to stop all medication for my acne. Needless to say, the stress of notbeing able to conceive has caused quite a few breakouts. If anyone has any recommendations on skin clearing products (safe to use when trying to conceive and/or when pregnant), feel free to pass them along!
Gloomy Days
Well it seems fitting that it’s a raining, gloomy day… AF just arrived. Fantastic.
I’ve decided to re-energize my blog… I need a stress reliever, and somehow sharing all my frustrations, pains and stories with a world of strangers seems to help! So let’s catch up from where I last left of… oh, just about 5 months ago:
- I’m still trying to get pregnant
- I’ve been diagnosed with EBV (the virus that “could” cause mono) – of course there’s no cure for this (according to my doctor), so I’m supposed to just deal with being tired all the time. The good news is that during the “testing phase” of this discovery, I was pricked for just about every virus and hormonal issues possible – and nothing else was “discovered”… so my thyroid and hormones are supposedly in check. Of course, as the doctor was explaining this to me I was balling my eyes out in his office… which is definitely not like me. He only tested my prolactin levels… I’m not sure that’s inclusive of all hormones though.
- I’ve gone through the pain of an HSG test – fortunately both tubes are open. And for anyone seeking honest inputs on how this test feels: it’s like your worst cramps… ever! The good news is that it’s only for a few minutes. I was scared out of my mind, but thank god for a funny doctor – he definitely made me feel at ease. I think the fact that the room was so big, cold and there was this huge machine moving over me was a little intimidating. Anyways, turns out everything was open – I’m was hoping that this would be like a good hard flush for my tubes… clearing out any possible blockages. Unfortunately, as #1 pointed out… no such luck.
- One of my good friends will be moving away
It’s actually a good opportunity for her family, but she was my rock to cry on and the person I could talk to about all my fertility issues (and again, my reason for bring my blog back). And it’s not like I don’t enjoy talking to my husband about all of this… but sometimes it’s just nice to seek comfort from another female’s point of view. - I’ve given up all caffeine (yes, including chocolate… and if you only knew how much chocolate I could put away… you’d understand this pain!), hot showers and baths (so I’ve heard this can cause issues in early pregnancy), and the gym (this is partially because my friend leaving (see #4) was also my motivator to hit the gym. I’ve done all of this on the whim that somehow I’ll magically become pregnant because of it!
- My obsession with organization has definitely increased… it’s something that keeps me busy (or at least my mind from wandering… Am I pregnant? Could that be an ovulation twinge? Was that implantation cramping I felt? Should I take a test?)
- Oh yeah, I switched to a new OB/GYN (she’s the one that recommended the HSG) and I love her!
Speaking of my new dr… I just called and left a message for her to call me back. I figured since AF is here… maybe she has a new plan up her sleeve for what else I can do. My other doctor had ordered my “Cycle Day 3 tests” on day 8… so I never really got a warm and fuzzy that the results were true. I’m hoping my new doctor will be able to run some tests this week… I really don’t want to lose another cycle of opportunities!
Ok, until my next post… fingers crossed!
Newbie
Well, this is my first post… I’ve finally decided to put my fingers to work. I find that writing helps to relieve stress and if anything provides some reading enjoyment for others… so here goes…!
My husband, Rob, and I were recently married in June. Our wedding day was a something out of a story book – beautiful weather, amazing ceremony and reception and quite memorable too! It was everything I imagined and then some! We honeymooned in Punta Cana and spent another week in Virginia Beach – both were amazing!
We went to Vegas in September for Rob’s aunt’s wedding… it was held at a local state park in the area. It was really beautiful – and I was shocked at how many mountains were in the area! I had never been to Vegas before, Rob went a few years back for one of his friends’ bachelor party. We stayed at NY, NY… again, amazing! We had a great view from our room (although we barely spent any time there!)! I became addicted to black jack… and for a while I was up several hundred $$$, but it seemed to disappear just like that!
And it was in Vegas that we decided we each wanted to start trying for a baby. So one thing lead to another and I found out I was pregnant in October… I was shocked after the first HPT was positive. When I told Rob we both had tears of joy in our eyes! However, I ended up having a miscarriage and we have not had any luck since then. As it turns out, I have a luteal phase defect and in January my doctor put me on Clomid (50mg) in hopes that this would correct the problem. In fact, aside from Rob, my doctor and a couple friends, we never really shared the pregnancy/miscarriage news with anyone… until now.
I really thought getting pregnant would be easy… hahaha… silly me. And of course it seems as though everyone else around me is now pregnant… flauting their fertility without even knowing it. So there are lots of baby shower invites coming and it makes me sad to even think about going to them. I am happy for my friends, but I also have to admit… I’m jealous. I am so green with envy that it’s driving me crazy. What’s a girl to do?
